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Meghan McCain on Her Father's Cancer Battle, the Future of the GOP, and What It's Really Like on Set at 'The View'


It was 2007 and well before Meghan McCain would be paid to have an opinion. In a New York City hotel war room, John McCain had gathered his most trusted aides to address his presidential prospects. The senator from Arizona had announced the run, but now his staff set out to extract a commitment. McCain was over 70. To bolster his bid, operatives wanted him to promise that if he was elected, he’d stay just one term in the White House. It was the prudent choice, a compromise between what he desired most and what the American people could stand.

But for Meghan, who was seated between the men and women who’d advised her father for decades, it didn’t sound like a compromise—it sounded desperate. No one had solicited her opinion, but she offered it: “Don’t do this.” Voters know the rest: The senator didn’t. After the meeting, his staff refused to speak to her.

When she recounts the fallout more than a decade later, McCain recalls their retribution with a smile. It was the first time she realized she had her own voice—and the power to wield it. In the decade since, she’s held gigs across three networks, published a memoir, and traveled nationwide with the comedian Michael Ian Black. But there’s a thick black line between the role she served in that hotel room and the one she serves as a co-host on The View and its lone conservative. Now, as then, if she wants to be heard, she’d better be loud—a mandate that finds her in near-constant battle with her five more progressive peers, Whoopi Goldberg, Sara Haines, Joy Behar, Sunny Hostin, and Paula Faris.

Most of the time McCain, 33, more than holds her own. She’s persuasive because she doesn’t lean on slickness or the kind of rhetorical flourishes that sound hollow on television. When she fights, she’s the most passionate relative at the dinner table—and the best informed. “It’s not bad, though,” McCain tells me. “This show is a challenge, and I like challenges.”

McCain and her cohosts on the set of The View.

While she has appeared on television since childhood, McCain first became an on-air commentator for MSNBC in 2011. She moved to Fox News in 2015 and, just after the presidential election, was tapped to cohost the talk show Outnumbered. Had the circumstances been different, she could have remained at Fox for the foreseeable future. Executives liked her, and though she believes the women who’ve come forward with claims of sexual harassment at the network, she says she experienced none of it.

But then the curveball: John McCain was diagnosed with an aggressive brain cancer that watchers of American poli­tics know well—the same disease killed Senator Ted Kennedy and Beau Biden, the oldest son of former vice president Joe Biden. Meghan decided to quit Fox. That summer and up until he started treatment, the McCains hiked the grounds of their ranch in Sedona, Arizona. She joined her father at doctor visits. She woke up with him at 5 a.m. for radiation appointments.

It was he who insisted Meghan join The View at all. She’d spent months with him, and she had no plans to leave his side. When the show reached out, McCain dismissed it. But her father said she’d be “insane to pass it up.” The pronouncement reminded her of one of his favorite expressions: “A fight not joined is a fight not enjoyed.” (He also likes to tell her, “Don’t let the bastards grind you down,” perhaps the sole call to arms that John McCain and Margaret Atwood share.)

The fight does exhilarate her, not least because it has given her opinions new clout. “The White House isn’t the only platform with a voice,” McCain says. “ABC has a pretty big voice too.” On air, she has criticized President Donald Trump for his relationship with Russia, his move to separate parents and children at the border, and his dependence on personal insults to diminish his rivals (her father included). Still, she remains an ardent conservative—pro-gun, anti-abortion, and with “no middle ground” on the issue of NFL anthem protests. She is not an avowed Never Trumper, which frees her to “call balls and strikes.” And she has predicted Trump will be reelected if Democrats don’t learn from their mistakes. Sometimes she feels shut down on The View, like an outcast. But she’s not sure she’d be at home back at Fox, either. The brand of Republicanism that she shares with her father and stood for when she worked there has been not just diminished but dismantled. People like the McCains have been “ostracized,” she says. Their vision for conservatism “is not what America wants.”

It’s June when we meet in what serves as her personal greenroom, accented with an American flag mural, a framed photo of her and her father reaching the summit on one of their hikes, and shelves of stilettos. A stack of books includes the latest novels from Meg Wolitzer and CNN anchor Jake Tapper, and Real Housewives’ Erika Jayne’s recent memoir. That week the conservative columnist and Pulitzer Prize winner Charles Krauthammer announced his cancer had spread and was terminal. (He lived less than two more weeks.) The news has rattled McCain. Until then she hadn’t cried much. Now she can’t stop. There’s a sense that we’ve arrived at the end of a moment—one in which it had been possible for men like John McCain and Ted Kennedy to “fight like animals on the Senate floor and then hug each other afterward.” She pauses, stricken. “I just don’t want bipartisanship to die too.”

An hour earlier Behar and Hostin had boxed McCain out of most of the conversation. While her cohosts cheered women’s across-the-board victories in recent primaries, McCain fumed. She didn’t want political races to be a referendum on gender. In a previous episode, she’d renounced “modern feminism,” but this time, she echoed the movement when she pointed out that a woman’s election is not its own success: A candidate’s stances matter. The effects her poli­cies have on women matter. McCain wanted her cohosts to evaluate politicians on their merits. But she couldn’t get a word in. The segment ended, and McCain stalked off set.

The taping over, she waves it off. (Fight, then hug.) Some shows are harmonious, she says. Some are like this one—not “a total kumbaya.” But despite rumors of behind-the-scenes resentment, McCain says the women know how to leave their disputes on air. She ticks off her own checklist: “Stick to the issues. Stick to information. Stick to facts.” And the ultimate litmus test: “Did I make my parents proud?”

If John McCain’s fandom is an indication, it would seem so. The show has proved a welcome distraction for both of them. The senator tunes in during at-home appointments. And her new perch has reminded Meghan that there is a kinder and more generous world out there than our polarized environment would suggest. Her cohosts have shown particular compassion. “I’m sure I make them crazed because I have a different political opinion, and I’m very tough,” she says. “But the women here are wonderful.” And not one dwells on the discord. Indeed, less than a week after the fracas over the primaries, Behar struggles to even recall that particular contention. “She and I are very similar,” Behar says of McCain. “We’re direct. We speak our minds.” The cameras beam their disputes into millions of households nationwide, and then the women move on.


A friend once told McCain that a person in anguish “is like a snake shedding its skin. You’re still the same snake, but you have new skin,” she says. “I’m not the same person I was when my dad was first diagnosed. I’m not. The innate person inside of me hasn’t changed, but I don’t look at the world in the same way.” It was he, the “maverick” in the Senate who wasn’t afraid to make enemies, who gave her license to be fearless. “My father is the sun in my universe,” she says, hugging her knees to her chest. “He’s the absolute center.” But all the stoicism she inherited from him evaporates when she realizes there will be a future to face alone. “He’s the last person who needs to be sick now because I so need him here, fighting for all the things that we believe in,” she says. “I’m scared of America without him.”

Sometimes she lets herself inhabit a pretend world in which John McCain’s presidential run had played out differently. “I have these moments where I wonder if my father could have become president if he’d had to do it [how] the Trumps did,” she says. “It 100 percent wouldn’t have been worth it to me. I would not have signed on for it. And he wouldn’t have done it. If you have to win that way, it’s not worth winning, from my perspective. Because when you’re out of office, what does your life look like?” Her father could have been savvier, she admits. He made mistakes. But this is her relief—whatever his missteps, he will leave politics with his own sense of honor intact.

Last November, McCain married Ben Domenech, a conservative writer and the publisher of The Federalist. The event was small, with around 100 guests. But countless more well wishes poured in. One stands out: Barack and Michelle Obama sent a letter. McCain doesn’t disclose its contents, but she tells me that it was hand-written. Months later, the mere fact of it still seems to awe her. Obama had beaten her father to the Oval Office. 2008 had been a hideous and contentious election. The McCains and the Obamas were supposed to be adversaries! But the letter—her voice catches. “It was such a kind gesture, you know? I disagree with him on many things, but kind gestures go far.” When Valerie Jarrett cohosted The View several months ago, McCain mentioned it to her. She’d wanted to thank someone for it, and Jarrett, who advised Obama in the White House, remains close to the former president. Far from the cameras, “we had this conversation—it’s just, that era is gone.”


Since the 2016 election, the McCains have resisted what Meghan calls “the invasion of the body snatchers”—the phenomenon that has driven once-principled conservatives to support the President’s positions over their own values. Their criticism has been strident, albeit driven as much (if not more) by Trump’s disdain for the norms of the office as his actual policies. “There are people I know who love President Trump and think that he’s the greatest thing that’s ever happened to America. I understand those people. I’m not shocked by them. I defend their right to love him,” McCain says. “But I do think character and rhetoric matter. What’s put out into the world and the universe matters. I’m just glad I don’t have to reconcile with those kinds of demons.”

John and Meghan McCain at her wedding; Meghan McCain joins her father on the trail in 2000.

And whatever loneliness she feels, McCain has her comrades. She is in near constant communication with HLN host and conservative S.E. Cupp. (The two are “an island,” Cupp says. Women without a tribe.) And she has come to treasure Joe Biden, who consoled her on live television for close to five viral minutes in December. The former vice president and her father have known each other for decades, but his on-air reassurance ushered in “a different kind of relationship” between Biden and her. “I talk to him all the time, and he checks in on me all the time.” It’s not quite the bipartisanship revival she craves, but it’s a personal salve.

The admiration is mutual. “There is no manual to consult when it comes to dealing with a seriously ill parent,” as Biden puts it via email. “But if there was, Meghan McCain would be the one to write it…. Publicly she has been fierce as John’s advocate, and privately her love and encouragement have sustained him. The way the entire McCain family has handled the cards they have been dealt is worthy of our admiration, and I know John is so incredibly proud of his daughter.”

In late April John McCain was sent back to the hospital. He would have to have another serious operation, and doctors wanted to prepare Meghan: If there were conversations she needed to have with him, it was time to initiate them. Meghan hesitated, then told her father’s team, “We’ve done that. He knows I love him more than anything, and I know he loves me more than anything. There’s nothing else. What’s next?”

In that moment, she remembers, she’d been flooded with the memories of a childhood indignation. Her father had been as strict with her as he was with her brothers. Why hadn’t she been given special status—a daughter’s reprieve? But his relentlessness, she knows, made her resilient. “I realize now he did it so I could survive this.”

A version of this article appears in the September 2018 issue of Glamour.



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4 Unexpected Skin Cancer Risk Factors to Know About


Skin cancer is terrifyingly common—20 percent of Americans will eventually get some form of it, and more than 36,000 women will be diagnosed with mela­noma, the deadliest type, this year. Most of us know the best prevention: Wear sunscreen daily, stay out of the sun during peak hours (that’s 10:00 A.M. to 4:00 P.M., FYI), avoid the literal deathbeds that are tanning salons. OK, easy enough. But other things up your risk too. Keep reading to get smart about four more culprits.



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Cancer Changed My Breasts, Not My Sexuality


When I was diagnosed with breast cancer in May 2014, I was 28 years old, in grad school, living paycheck to paycheck as a part-time sexuality educator, and planning my wedding. I had lost my mom to breast cancer when I was 13, so I had a hunch it was coming for me, but the timing was not ideal—not that it ever is. The universe continues to remind me that life is just going to show up and it’s up to me how I respond.

That statement rang true over and over again: When I decided to cut off my dreadlocs before chemotherapy so I wouldn’t have to wake up and find them loose in my bed; during my wedding dress fitting, as the seamstress situated my gown around surgical drains hanging from each breast; and right before I was put under anesthesia for my double mastectomy that June, when I blurted enthusiastically to the nurses, “I’m having a boob job!” even though I was trying not to cry. I seemed functional to those around me, but I had been grappling for some control over the chaos in my life.

As a black, queer femme, adversity exists for me as normal; breast cancer, hard as it was, wasn’t my first hardship. My family history is rich with a long lineage of black women who’ve not been granted time to heal or address their personal wounds. We are just supposed to do, and when we are unable, hold back tears to appear useful in our stillness. I learned about this secret-keeping from my mom.

I found some lube in my her closet once. It was after my parents had separated a couple of years after her diagnosis, and she was dating again. I was young and didn’t know what it was exactly, but I could piece the clues together—it was suggestively shaped, like a Coke bottle, and had “sex” written on the label. My mom had had a lumpectomy which took a nipple with it, and she never related this as a loss in her sexual self. If anything, being newly single and finished with chemo, baby hairs and all, had her feeling ready to date.

It’s funny how the universe does what it wants regardless of if you are ready or not, and also how it repeats itself.

A year and a half after being married, my wife and I divorced. It wasn’t my breast cancer that undid us, but rather the opportunity of stillness in our relationship. I experienced a great deal of fatigue, so what I preferred to do most of the time was to be still. The adventures that we would take or plan were put on hold, while any arguments we had pushed under the rug had to be buried even farther—and in this stillness they all came tumbling out.

What I found when I began dating again was that something had been missing from “us,” not from me.

The absence of sex created more of a strain. My body was in recovery for most of our marriage. After my double mastectomy, I could not lift my arms above my head for several weeks and needed assistance getting in and out of bed. I suffered painful vaginal dryness and a lowered libido, which I hadn’t known could be side effects of chemo until I went to my doctor wondering if something was wrong with me. I at least knew I didn’t want to be touched, not then.

I had become protective over my body. I wanted to know people’s intentions for coming close—and loving me was not sufficient. With the endless amount of hands on me on a regular basis, my body became a site of constant undesired touch. A year and a half had passed by in my marriage and we had barely grazed one another. I was becoming completely content sleeping with our 40-pound pit bull wedged between us. I thought my illness was wedged between us, too, but what I found when I began dating again was that something had been missing from “us,” not from me.

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If it’s warm out, I’m contemplating if I can wear a sheer shirt. On this day, it wasn’t warm (hence the coat), but I went for it anyway.


When I moved out, I was thrust into the alien world of online dating. I started with Tinder. Should I add photos of my double mastectomy, so they know what they are signing up for? I wondered. And, Should I include “breast cancer survivor” in the bio?

I went with, “Ericka Hart, M.Ed – Black, queer, Sagittarius, and breast cancer survivor.” I uploaded a picture of myself wearing a head wrap and a T-shirt, at a high enough angle to capture my cheekbones—I didn’t show my body at all, letting the bio be enough of a heads up. I was self-conscious, sure, but my desire to be intimate overrode my nerves. So I hit “save,” and my profile went live.

I started going on dates pretty quickly (like I said, Sagittarius), but being a queer non-binary pansexual femme in New York City meant limited choices (and I live in Brooklyn, I wasn’t about to travel Uptown). But the messages came in, and it wasn’t long before I had my first coy request for nudes. I nearly fell off my bed. Yes, it says “breast cancer survivor” right there on my profile, but that can look so many ways. Who knows what this person might be expecting to receive in a quick sext.

For me, after a double mastectomy and reconstructive surgeries, here’s what it looks like: I still have breast mounds (thanks to silicone implants), but they’re more rectangular shaped than cupped, and there are horizontal scars striped across the center of each one where my nipples used to be. I still felt sexy—and sexual—in my body, but receiving that message, I was confronted with fears that others may not see it that way. Perhaps this person glossed over the “cancer” part of my bio entirely, or assumed the illness was merely a part of my past and not written permanently across my body.

My mind raced for a minute too long for texting etiquette, and I was met with an urgent-feeling, “You still there?”

And so I went for it: I lifted up my shirt, curved my body in a way that I hoped would distract from my breasts to maybe my hips, and hit send.

After a “goodnight” text, I never heard from that person again.

I want to say I was hurt from this experience, but it honestly felt familiar. I’m no stranger to comparison and holding myself up against others who are more often admired for their looks—light-skinned black girls and white girls, for instance. Not being pursued because of my looks was not uncomfortable or weird, it was pretty normal.

Just over a month later, I swiped right on a beautiful person from California visiting Brooklyn for a month. We had a two-hour date which felt like we were just catching up on missed time, and two days later he wrote a poem describing the way that I walk. Perhaps for the first time, my whole self was being worshipped. I had been jumping over hurdles when I was married and then dating. At each intersection of my identity there would be the heavy lift of explaining who I am, the struggle of internalizing some expectation of how the world painted me, and then, after all that, a rejection.

Two years later in a madly juicy off-the-walls love with that poet from California, my double mastectomy scars are not treated as a separate or a confusing part of me. My entire existence is elevated and supported daily, just for its mere presence, not for what it can or can not do. Not for what it’s missing—which, if you ask me, is not a damn thing.



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Watch Joe Biden Comfort a Crying Meghan McCain Over Father's Cancer Diagnosis


Since John McCain announced that he was diagnosed with glioblastoma brain cancer earlier this year, many politicians have rallied around the senator from Arizona and wished him a speedy recovery, including Joe Biden. The former vice president knows firsthand how difficult it can be to watch a family member suffer from cancer; his son Beau died in 2015, also from glioblastoma.

During a visit to The View on Wednesday to promote his new memoir, Promise Me, Dad, which centers around Beau’s cancer fight, Biden comforted John’s daughter and View co-host Meghan McCain in a very emotional moment. “I think about Beau almost every day, and I was told that this doesn’t get easier,” McCain said, through tears. Biden then sat beside her, holding her hand to offer her support and words of reassurance. “One of the things that gave Beau courage was John. Your dad took care of my Beau,” said Biden. He continued, “If anyone can make it, your dad [can].” Biden, who has devoted his time since leaving office to aiding cancer research, listed many promising medical discoveries that scientists are testing currently and offered a bit of scientific hope for anyone going through the same devastation as the McCain family.

Biden also touched on the special relationship he has with John McCain. “Her dad is one of my best friends,” he said. “We’re like two brothers who were somehow raised by different fathers or something, because of our points of view.” He even recalled a time that McCain told him to “get the hell off” the ticket in 2008. John McCain reacted to the moment on social media, tweeting a message to the Bidens. “Thank you @JoeBiden & the entire Biden family for serving as an example & source of strength for my own family,” he wrote.

In a confusing and often troubling current political climate, it’s a very rare and personal moment between two families, on opposite sides of the aisle, coming together.

Related: Joe Biden Had the Best Message of Support for Julia Louis-Dreyfus





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I Was Fighting Breast Cancer as an Underinsured Woman, and I Couldn't Get the Care I Needed to Live


“I’ll do whatever I have to do to get out of here,” Nikki “Trip” Triplet, 39, remembers thinking when she showed up at one clinic for breast cancer testing. But the self-employed, under-insured Texan wasn’t talking about fighting and surviving breast cancer. She was talking about getting out of that particular run-down facility. She was determined to receive her care in a cleaner, better-managed medical center than her bare bones government-issued insurance allowed.

“I needed chemo once a week but they had it scheduled every six to eight weeks because that was how long it would take to get an appointment,” Triplet tells Glamour. “When I tell you ‘sometimes you almost die before you get treatment,’ it’s not a joke. When it comes to cancer and the medical world, you’re poor unless you’re rich.”

Triplet says that financial discrimination was her toughest fight when she was battling breast cancer. Tougher than the white women who wouldn’t move their purses so a black woman—accompanied by her girlfriend, no less—could sit down next to them in a waiting room. Tougher than the doctor who said, “I’m pretty sure you’re not going to be milking any babies with those.”

courtesy Nikki Triplet

“If you are not insured, then you might as well be Black or Hispanic or gay or a lesbian because you will be treated just like we are treated every day,” she says. “But being insurance-less is the new black.”

Once she was diagnosed, Triplet, a real estate agent, says she and her girlfriend called medical offices endlessly, trying to find the right words to say in order to get her the help she needed. When she heard, “We don’t take your insurance,” she’d say, “I’m sure somebody else there does.” When she heard, “Your girlfriend can’t come in the room,” she’d say, “Oh, good thing she’s my best friend, so now she can come in.”

“We would put on the pressure on anyway that we could,” Triplet says. It paid off—eventually, she landed in the hands Jamie E. Terry, MD, who specializes in breast surgery at Texas Breast Specialists-Houston Medical Center, and received excellent care. Triplet can’t rave enough about Dr. Terry. So now she advocates for others to stand up for themselves and get the physicians they deserve.

“I want all Black people, all broke people, all gay people to know: you gotta take a whole bunch of nos to get to yes,” she says. “But I don’t want anybody giving up.”

And words matter. That’s one of the most important lessons Triplet learned on her cancer journey. But she also learned how to speak without saying anything at all. She just smiles—to reveal a gold grill that says “FUCK CANCER.”

“It’s offensive awareness,” she says. “I want as many people who can be offended to be offended by it. Because I was offended when cancer picked me. I was offended that I was going to lose my hair. I was offended by the things that I was about to go through that I wasn’t prepared for.” It’s a reminder to everyone that cancer can happen to anyone.

After multiple surgeries, chemotherapy and radiation, Triplet will continue to take a once-a-day pill for three more years as part of her battle. “Cancer broke me down,” admits the advocate for Avon (she’s also a state leader for the Young Survival Coalition in Texas). “But at the same time it built me up. I became the person I didn’t know that I was supposed to be.”

“Never for one minute believe that you must defend [what happens in] your bedroom or [what’s in] your bank account in order to defend your breasts—or your life.”



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My Dad Had Just Died from Cancer—Then I Got Diagnosed with Breast Cancer, Too


When Homa Sadat’s father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in 2010, her family, including her mother and seven siblings, watched him shrink from 187 pounds to 118. Every day after work she would put on a brave face and visit her dad to lift his spirits. Then she’d head to the bathroom, close the door and cry from feeling so helpless. “With pancreatic cancer, you usually find out at the last stage,” says Sadat, a 33-year-old former property manager who lives in Los Angeles. “There was nothing we could do.”

Her dad passed away in 2011. “Seeing him go through that was really hard on me—we were really close,” says Sadat. “I saw what cancer and chemotherapy could do to someone.”

Because of her father’s illness, Sadat was persistent about checking her own body for signs anything was off, including her breasts. About six months after her father died, she felt a lump.

At her gynecologist, they decided to take a watch and wait approach. “I put it out of my mind,” she says. “I was so busy with my life with work and school. I didn’t think that it would be anything serious.” By the time a shooting pain in her breast brought her back to the doctor, it had been another six months. Testing eventually revealed she had triple negative breast cancer, which had spread to her lymph nodes.

Homa did a lot of research on where she could get the best treatment, eventually deciding to participate in a clinical trial at City of Hope, a cancer treatment and research center in Los Angeles. “I felt really comfortable there,” says Sadat, who went through 16 weeks of chemotherapy followed by surgery and radiation.

Homa Sadat in Los Angeles.

“I was pretty strong about it because I witnessed my dad go through it. I was like, “Okay, I can do it, too,” she says. But she also knew that her mother and siblings had just faced the loss of an integral part of their family to the same disease, and that made her want to shield them from her treatment at times. While her family was an incredibly strong support system, Sadat felt inclined to stay away from them at times and relied heavily on friends, living across the street from her mother’s house after recovering from surgery.

“I didn’t want to be in their face going through the same thing again. My mom was just trying to deal with the loss of my dad. It had only been a year since we lost him. I didn’t want to be a reminder,” she says. “But no matter how strong I acted around my family, they knew my pain and what I was going through. I couldn’t hide it from them.”

Part of trying to stay strong meant normalizing her life as much as possible and not looking like a “sick person,”—especially after her little brother broke into tears one day when she took off her wig in front of him. As a part of this, working was incredibly important to her. “Just because I had cancer didn’t mean my life stopped,” says Sadat, who continued to try to work throughout her treatment. “I’d go out, have dinner—keep living my life.” In the end, Sadat, who is now cancer-free, says this approach helped her. “Fighting and acting like I didn’t have cancer really got me through it,” she says.

She also focuses on a new philosophy of spending as much time as you can with loved ones and stressing less. “One thing I didn’t have before that I do now,” she says, “is balance.”



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