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Celebrities Are Coming Unhinged During Quarantine, and I've Never Felt More Seen


People keep asking me how I’m doing during this period of self-isolation and quarantine because of the coronavirus, and I’m unsure what to say. Am I surviving? Yes. Am I staging full-on productions of “All that Jazz” wearing nothing but a red Christmas blanket? Also yes. Is that why I’m surviving, perhaps? A thousand percent.

Quarantine has gotten weird, guys. Now that I’ve ripped through everything I wanted to on Netflix, organized my closet (i.e.: moved all the crap to a place I can’t see it), and caught up with everyone I’ve ever encountered since birth, I’m bored. So bored. And that boredom is manifesting in behaviors that would typically seem bizarre but now make total sense. Like having a dance party for one in the pitch black. In my living room. After drinking a bottle of wine. To the same song on a loop. I think Jessica Lange did something similar on a season of American Horror Story, and her character was literally going insane. For me, though, it was just Saturday night.

And Monday night, and Tuesday night, and Wednesday. No, I’m not staging full-on discos every day, but I am doing at least one thing that borders on unhinged—and not intentionally, either. When I say unhinged, I don’t mean physically or emotionally harmful, just kooky. I think finding humor in the absurdity of what I’m doing indoors is helping me cope with the true absurdity on the outside. Translation: Doing the “Bad Romance” choreography while staring straight into the eyes of the Gaga photo I have blown up and framed in my kitchen is my coronavirus coping mechanism.

A few celebrities out there get this, too. They’re not performing pop shows for inanimate objects, per se, but they are exhibiting some, erm, off-kilter behavior and posting it for the world to see. I feel completely seen in their wackiness. And if you’ve also been flirting with your lampshade on and off for the past week, I think you will too.

Behold: The most delightfully deranged things celebs have done while in quarantine:

Julia Louis-Dreyfus’s makeup look here.

Kristin Chenoweth belting out a random opera note while putting cheese on pasta, dressed in a Winnie the Pooh onesie.

Ina Garten making a cocktail the size of a 9-year-old child.

January Jones dumping an entire box of baking soda into her “detox bath,” wearing an opulent rainbow caftan in the middle of the day. Also: her neon mask and beer dance party.

Leslie Jordan making enough chicken salad “for an army” while waxing poetic about the time he took an “illicit substance” at a New York City nightclub.

Cardi B screaming bloody murder at her computer screen and yelling expletives in full glam.

Madonna replacing some of the lyrics to “Vogue” with the phrase “fried fish.” Sure!

Judi Dench wandering around her house in a dog hat.

Jessica Chastain “spying” on people and seeing things that only make sense in a Willy Wonka movie.

Arnold Schwarzenegger having a formal meal in his house alongside a live pony and donkey.

And last but not least, Julianne Moore vacuuming her lawn for…reasons?

I am all of these people.

Christopher Rosa is the staff entertainment writer at Glamour. Follow him on Twitter @chrisrosa92.





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Meghan Markle Reportedly Felt 'Trapped and Claustrophobic' Living in London


It looks like stepping back from senior royal duties was exactly what Meghan Markle needed.

According to a source who spoke to Us Weekly, “Meghan has a real spring in her step again. She feels like a new person.”

It’s been no secret that Prince Harry and Meghan Markle have struggled with their life in the spotlight post-royal wedding. The couple, who recently returned to their new home in Canada after wrapping up their final royal engagements, has spoken out on multiple occasions about the British tabloid circuit. Back in 2019, as a part of the documentary Harry & Meghan: An African Journey, Markle gave a particularly emotional response when director Tom Bradby asked how she was coping with the exposure.

“I would say…look, any woman, especially when they’re pregnant, you’re really vulnerable,” she said at the time. “So that was made really challenging. And then when you have a newborn, you know?

”And especially as a woman, it’s really, it’s a lot,” Markle continued. “So if you add this on top of just trying to be a new mom or trying to be a newlywed, it’s um…. Yeah, well, I guess, and also thank you for asking because not many people have asked if I’m OK. But it’s a very real thing to be going through behind the scenes.”

In the same documentary, (Prince) Harry remarked that every flash of the paparazzi took him “straight back” to the traumatic time in his life following his mother, Princess Diana’s, death, And now, Us Weekly has revealed new details about how Markle struggled with the lack of privacy in the U.K.

“She was nervous to step outside her own front door because of all the negative attention she attracted,” the source told Us Weekly, also claiming the duchess would have panic attacks. The source also said that Markle felt “trapped and claustrophobic” while living in Frogmore Cottage. “Meghan’s thrilled to have escaped the chaos of London,” the source added.

Markle is, presumably, now in preventative coronavirus quarantine alongside (Prince) Harry, who has become a serious advocate for mental health awareness, and their son, Archie. They continue to share thoughts and resources on social media to help stop the coronavirus pandemic.

“Our emotional well-being is challenged everyday whether we realise it or not, but our lives are usually filled with distractions. Now with constantly changing COVID coverage, we are all adjusting to this new normal and the feelings that come with it,” they wrote in a recent Instagram post. “But here’s the good thing (because right now we need to hear good things, right?): Yes, there is isolation and physical distancing, but there doesn’t have to be loneliness.”



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IVF Failure Felt Like Miscarriage


Ten percent of all known pregnancies end in miscarriage. So why does the subject still feel so taboo? For women dealing with the complicated grief of miscarriage, it’s not the stat that’s comforting—it’s the knowledge that they’re not alone, that there is a space to share their story. To help end the culture of silence that surrounds pregnancy and infant loss, Glamour presents The 10 Percent, a place to dismantle the stereotypes and share real, raw, stigma-free stories.

Infertility isn’t a word you expert to hear at 26 years of age. Certainly not when you’re still single and years away from thinking about your future family. But that’s exactly how old I was when, still young and single, I was told that stage IV endometriosis had stripped me of my ability to conceive. “If you ever want to have biological children, you need to do something about that now,” my doctor advised.

The development of my condition happened swiftly, so it’s not like I’d had years to prepare for this possibility. It was all dropped in my lap in a bundle; the diagnosis, the prognosis, and the suggestion that I act upon my fertility now, before it was too late.

I visited with a reproductive endocrinologist and weighed my options. At the time, egg freezing was considered a risk, still experimental—the rate of eggs that survived freezing was just too low, and the possibility that none of my eggs would survive and that I wouldn’t know that until years down the line was just too great.

I knew I couldn’t live with the years of uncertainty, my desire to be a mom anything but uncertain.

Embryo freezing was seen to have better odds, but if I was going to purchase sperm for that, I figured I might as well go the whole way and do a fresh in vitro fertilization (IVF) cycle, which had the best chance of success overall. At least, that was how I reasoned with myself when I decided to pursue IVF as a single woman just a few months past my 27th birthday.

The process happened quickly. A month of medications followed by a minor outpatient surgery to extract the eggs that would then be fertilized for my IVF cycle. In the end, I had only three viable embryos. But the picture given to me of those three embryos was one I cherished. These are my babies, I thought.

Because I was young (with the assumption being that my youth might lead to more favorable results), the decision was made to transfer only one of those embryos at first. From the moment that transfer took place, I was convinced I was pregnant, turning down wine at dinner with a gleeful smirk. Every twinge and butterfly I felt was proof to me of that fact, even long before physical symptoms would have made sense. So confident was I that there was a little life growing inside me, I even toured the local midwife center, aiming to get on their list as soon as possible so that I could give birth to my baby in their birthing tub.

I was so convinced I was pregnant that when the call came 10 days later confirming that I wasn’t, I immediately fell to the floor in tears. I knew logically that what I was experiencing was not a miscarriage—you have to be pregnant first to experience that—but in my heart, a miscarriage was the closest thing I could think to compare my IVF failure to.

That had been my baby. I’d seen its picture. An actual, viable embryo had been placed into my body; all my hopes and dreams tied up in a little clump of cells that bore my DNA. And it hadn’t survived.



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Taylor Swift's Diary Reveals How She Really Felt After the 2009 VMAs


It’s hard to believe it’s been a decade since Kanye West hopped up on stage and interrupted a young Taylor Swift as she was receiving her 2009 MTV Video Music Award for Best Female Video for “You Belong With Me.”

The “I’mma let you finish” moment, when West declared that Beyoncé had the best video of the year for “Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It),” is now one of the most famous moments in recent pop culture history—and it’s had 10 years of ripple effects, including West’s song “Famous” and the ensuing drama with Swift and his wife, Kim Kardashian.

But we’re just now learning new details about what exactly went down that night, thanks to excerpts from Swift’s diary released with the deluxe version of her new album, Lover, as well as an oral history from Billboard published ahead of Monday night’s VMAs.

“If you had told me that one of the biggest stars in music was going to jump up onstage and announce that he thought I shouldn’t have won on live television, I would’ve said, ‘That stuff doesn’t really happen in real life.’ Well… apparently…. It does,” Swift wrote in her diary at the time.

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According to Billboard‘s oral history of the incident, MTV producers were just as shocked as we (and the audience at Radio City Music Hall) were to see West jump on on stage during Swift’s acceptance speech. On TV, we all watched Beyoncé mouth, “Oh, Kanye,” but we didn’t see Pink later confront him during a commercial break.

“During the commercial break, he went back down to his seat ,and Pink walked up to him and got in his face,” then-MTV senior correspondent Jesse Montgomery told Billboard. “I wasn’t close enough to hear the conversation, but she was pointing in his face and nodding her head back and forth, and giving him her two cents about how fucked up this was and then stormed off. Then he was sitting there next to Amber Rose with his arm around her, and you could feel everyone in Radio City glaring at his back.”

Taylor Swift's Diary Reveals How She Really Felt After the 2009 VMAs
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Sex After Miscarriage Felt Impossible


On the drive to Saint Augustine, Florida, where my husband and I had planned an anniversary getaway, I realized I was having a miscarriage.

The day before, I’d noticed some unusual spotting and rushed to my ob-gyn’s office. Spotting during pregnancy isn’t uncommon (about 20% of women experience it in the first trimester, according to the American Pregnancy Association) but my doctor also couldn’t detect a heartbeat. She gave me an order for two blood tests to be done exactly 48 hours apart in order to confirm if my HCG—aka the pregnancy hormone—was rising (a sign of a healthy pregnancy) or falling (a sign of a miscarriage), and sent me on my way.

As we drove from our hometown to our destination the next morning, my spotting got heavier and heavier. At that point, just six weeks into my first pregnancy after four months of trying, I didn’t need test results to tell me what was happening.

Miscarriage is heartbreakingly common—about 10-15 percent of women who know they’re pregnant, according to the March of Dimes. (Many more women are thought to miscarry before they even know they’re pregnant.) But knowing that didn’t make me stop wondering: Is there something wrong with me?

It felt—and still feels—surreal to have experienced such joy and such despair so close together. But what feels the most surreal to me still is how complicated healing from a miscarriage can be, even months later—especially when it comes to feeling like a sexual being again. Before my miscarriage, I was sexually on fire. With a surge of pregnancy hormones, I was turned on by the tiniest things and masturbated often if my husband wasn’t available. But in the days leading up to my miscarriage, my sexual frenzy started to calm down—looking back, it may have been a sign of the ebb in hormones that surrounds a miscarriage.

It’s been three months since my miscarriage, and life is mostly back to normal save for the way I feel about my body and my sexuality. I’d like to say that I am a-okay but the truth is I feel out of touch with my body—like my sexuality has disappeared, like my body has failed me. So many of our ideas about womanhood are tied to fertility—our breasts that can feed a baby, our periods that are an indicator of biological maturity, our wombs that can nurture growing life. After a miscarriage, it was hard not to feel like my womanhood had somehow failed me. It was—and still is—hard to feel feminine and sexy and desirable.

I know that motherhood is only one part of what makes me who I am—and as a feminist, I know that for many women motherhood doesn’t factor into their femininity at all. But in the haze of trauma, my femininity and womanhood and sexuality all feel muddled. I have always been a sexual person (I mean, I tried sex meditation and consider masturbation a form of self-care) and as my husband and I continue to talk about kids in our future, embracing my sexuality is even more important to me—even if it’s a little more complicated than it was before my miscarriage.

Feeling sexy again began with Beyoncé. A week into knowing about my pregnancy—a week before the miscarriage—Beyoncé’s Homecoming came out on Netflix. She opened up about her difficult pregnancy with twins Rumi and Sir and I found her admission incredibly inspiring, but what has inspired me every day since has been her previous openness about her miscarriage before Blue Ivy.



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Sophie Turner Says She Felt Pressure to Lose Weight While Filming ‘Game of Thrones’


In a new interview with Marie Claire Australia, Sophie Turner opens up about how therapy helped her navigate some tough moments while filming Game of Thrones.

“I have experienced mental illness firsthand, and I’ve seen what it can do to the people around [the sufferers] as well,” the actor who plays Sansa on GoT tells Marie Claire. “[In my teen years] my metabolism suddenly decided to fall to the depths of the ocean and I started to get spotty and gain weight, and all of this was happening to me on camera.”

Unfortunately, people weren’t so kind to Turner as she was growing up in the public eye. In a podcast from two weeks ago, she talked about the comments she would receive from fans about her appearance. “People used to say, ‘Damn, Sansa gained 10 pounds,’ or ‘Damn, Sansa needs to lose 10 pounds,’ or ‘Sansa got fat,’” Turner revealed. “It was just a lot of weight comments, or I would have spotty skin because I was a teenager and that’s normal, and I used to get a lot of comments about my skin and my weight and how I wasn’t a good actress.”

Turner says therapy helped her deal with this pressure. “Everyone needs a therapist, especially when people are constantly telling you you’re not good enough and you don’t look good enough,” she also told the magazine. “I think it’s necessary to have someone to talk to, and to help you through that.”

Sophie Turner has often been transparent about her mental health journey. Just last month she told Dr. Phil on his podcast that she experienced depression in her late teen years—in part, she thinks, because she was living at home filming GoT while her friends were at college. She frequently turned to her onscreen sister, Maisie Williams, for support but admitted at one point their friendship had a “destructive side” because they spent time only together.

“Maisie and I used to [stay inside] together,” she told Dr. Phil. “I think being friends with each other was quite destructive because we were going through the same thing. We used to get home from set, go to a Tesco across the road, a little supermarket, and just buy food. We’d go back to our room and eat it in bed. We never socialized for a couple of years. We didn’t socialize with anyone but ourselves.”



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